a printer's life
life through a darkroom printer's point of view.
Monday, March 9, 2020
Sunday, March 20, 2016
the x-ray specialist
ok.
so, i'm waiting in line at the airport, about to go through security,
shoes off, no belt, and a lead bag full of film in my hands.
"could
you check this by hand please?"
suspicion
now floats over me, all the agents turn around to take a look at me.
"what
is it?"
"film"
i say
"ok.
you can put it through, the machine doesn't affect film."
"this
is high speed film." i lie.
"anything
under 800 iso is fine."
"well,
this is 4000."
"it's
written 400 on it. hp5 400."
"i
shot it at 4000 iso."
i
have no problem lying about film speed when it's a matter of
preservation. anyway, someone takes my lead bag, i go through the
x-ray, so do my cameras, while keeping an eye on my film bag. once,
an agent took 3 rolls out of my sight for a moment, and somehow these
very 3 rolls got fogged.
so
now i empty the rolls of film into a tray, and the hand inspection
begins. it's pretty quick actually. a swap for explosives and
another for drugs. i have to separate film from camera, much like
gun and bullets, because some people (no comments) do carry guns and
ammunition in planes... just take a look at the lunacy on tsa
instagram.
"you're
clear!" i'm told.
i
put the film back in the lead bag, on on i go.
but,
before i go, the security guy who inspected my film says:
"it
doesn't even affect film, you know, you really don't have to do
that."
"well,
actually, it does."
"you
know, i've been an x-ray specialist for 15 years, trust me, it
doesn't do anything to film..."
so
i pulled rank on him.
"i've
been a photo lab technician for 25 years, trust me, it does. it fogs
it. it leaves a continuous hyperbola throughout the length of the
roll."
he
turns around and mutters "impossible."
quick
reminder: this is taking place at an airport security check point,
i'm not there to win an argument, i just want to get on the plane, or
home.
"i
just want to be safe."
honestly,
i don't know how one trains for the effects of x-rays on silver
halides, but if i was testing, i would put a roll through, develop
it, look at it and say: "oh yes, x-rays fog film."
now,
what i'd like to know is, who came up with x-rays being safe for film
800 iso and less? it makes absolutely no sense, it's completely
arbitrary. everyone knows high energy photons, with a wavelength
similar to atoms, and emitted by electrons, will photoabsorb the
radiated -bluish if we could see it- light. x-rays have a much
shorter wavelength than visible light, therefore the silver crystals
trapped in gelatin are bombarded intermittently by waves much shorter
they are used to. i'm not making this up, here's a quote from kodak:
" the orientation of the fog stripe depends on the orientation
of the film relative to the x-ray beam. the banding may be linear or
wavy and can run lengthwise or horizontally on the film. it can also
undulate, depending on the combination of the angle of exposure and
the multiple laps of film on the roll." i shoot 120 film, so the
stripe runs as a very tight wave, almost vertical across the width.
35 mm film will run a much longer wave along the length of the roll.
i'm
not trying to change, or even improve, the situation, i just want to
travel and shoot film. so i smile and i move on. i don't care what
the customs agent thinks anymore. the good part is that in the last
3 years or so, i've had no problem having my film inspected by hand.
but, what if you do get your film x-rayed and you want to print it?
fogged
film is bullet-proof -thick- meaning pretty much all halides on every
layer of the emulsion have been darkened. there is no toe region on
this sensitometric curve. flatness blurs the line between shadows
and highlights. plus, when that happens, the grain structure become
more apparent. you got yourself a flat piece of film, you compensate
by adding contrast, which gives you more grain. not good in most
situations. in this case, split filtration comes in handy. first
you expose the grays, the general patterns of the image, diffusing
clumps of grains for a smoother feel, and then, zap, just an accent
of pure black to define the said patterns. i close down the f-stop
for the high contrast and open up for the low, obviously, every
little bit helps. a 90/10 ratio, perhaps 80 % low, 20 high, it
varies with every image.
my
point is you can't just casually print x-ray fogged film. once i was
so frustrated with the whole experience i told them to throw away my
film if they must x-ray it, because i wouldn't be able to use it
anyway. yaddi yaddi yadda, we agreed to disagree, and somehow, since
that day, no problem to hand check photographic film. they do
fingerprint me every time though...
now,
in the chance you like your film as it gets through airport x-ray
scanners, i can help you replicate that look without the hassle of
going through customs at an airport. i 'discovered' that trick in an
unfortunate event; you simply leave your film in the developer after
regular development, as if you forgot it somehow, retrieve it a few
hours later and continue through the fix. i only did this once, but
i'll never forget the look of it.
ps:
no, it wasn't my film.
Saturday, December 12, 2015
translating the grayscale
well,
no, i do not only print from acetate negatives with an actual image
of a moment from life on them. sometimes photography doesn't let the
light do the drawing all by itself, sometimes photography doesn't
need the light to be reflected. photographers sometimes forget that
a light sensitive surface can be non-representational. artists
working with photographic tools mostly have little use of a camera,
they tend to focus on the print, the object made with light sensitive
paper or other support.
i've
printed typeface, shapes, static, fabric, drawings on vellum, and now
wood. i know i start with a lot of 'sometimes', that's because artists
working with light sensitive materials mostly do it themselves. the
few artists who need these services start with an idea, they need to
translate it into a photographic language. most likely on a larger scale than they can do themselves. that, i know. in an
earlier post i had mentioned the interpreter in me, the importance of
putting words into images, and vice-versa. so i write about this now
because my interpretive skills were put to the test by lisa
oppenheim. i had to brush up on tree types, names and patterns as
well. and although i had printed lace for lisa before, slices of
wood don't really follow the rules of silver printing. my blue-green
black and white paper along with the yellow-red of the different
types of wood were a challenge to filter. i used the yellow-cyan
trick to make them look like negatives of themselves.
the
exposure times were really unpredictable at first, but with a little
practice i could almost read the wood like a negative. it didn't
take much for the exposure times to jump, a bit of red dye added to
the pulp and zoom, i was in the minutes... now i can't look at a
tree without seeing its negative in black and white. there are worse
things.
those
prints made me think a little harder, or rather in a different way,
and the result is well worth the effort. any visual translation is
good for the brain.
earlier
this year, i had worked with helen dennis, and saw up-close how
someone can draw. i mean draw over a few square feet on several
layers of transparency. her work was too big to print horizontally
and use gravity to contact print. these drawings were at least 6 or
7 feet long each. plus all the sheets of vellum had to be registered
and placed on top of the paper, against a wall. i ended up spending
more time on a ladder than anything else. and same here, the result
is unbelievable, lines of white and all shades of grey against a
black background. really to be seen.
also
there was the printing of the greyscale on two different occasions,
in different ways, for different people. just weeks apart. weird
right? one was to print every single step an inch wide for a total
length of about 80 inches. and the other the same size but as a
gradation done by hand. the second being for alexei hay, and a
puzzle to figure out, as well as a very difficult printing exercise.
as for the scale with distinct steps, we made an lvt negative, and
still, quite a brain teaser to figure out the proper contrast.
another interesting printing exercise.
and
printing the original acetate with type for bill beckley brought back
some memories, to a time when any type near an image was printed
through acetate. and it was used quite often, headshots were made
that way, with an enlarger head shinning up on a piece of glass, and
an automatic timer to open and close.
anyway,
the darkroom offers many ways to work, ways that have nothing to do
with photography, and many artists and photographers have used the
multitude of techniques, and - as i experience in my little corner of
the world - continue to do so. and frankly, when i really think
about it, being honest and all, i don't know if i like photography
for the darkroom alone... hmmm...
Monday, September 28, 2015
printing by numbers
i'm
afraid printing with an enlarger is being misunderstood lately, with
the newly found interest in film photography. i'm specifically
referring to a trend to show silver gelatin prints of famous images
with corrections drawn on them, by the photographer for the printer.
in
my humble experience of 30 years of printing for a number of
photographers, i have never encountered a situation that would call
for such markings. to the point where i'm not even sure what they
mean. ok, i'm playing dumb here a little bit, but only because we're
talking about really famous images from really famous photographers.
my point being these markings make no sense. none. let me explain.
if my guess is so far off from what the print should be, it would
barely make it out of my fix. it might make it to a water holding
tray to compare with my next move, and then it gets tossed. if i
showed a bad work print to a client, they would lose their confidence
in my ability to print their negatives, and rightly so.
let
me explain further. again, i only bring this up because many amateur
printers might think that's how it works to collaborate on a print.
it's not. and if an intern, or assistant, is working directly in the photographer's
darkroom, they couldn't make the said corrections anyway. so who are
those markings for?
as
a professional printer, my job is to show what can be done with a
negative, with the knowledge of prior work done by that same
photographer. if the photographer has to show me how to print, then
they need an operator, not a master printer. but in the analogue
world we don't have enlarger operators, we have printers, people who
interpret a negative image into a positive one. and the reason i
wanted to write about such markings on prints is to explain how
prints are made. one does not print by numbers in the darkroom.
i've said it many times before, and today i take the opportunity to
say it again. the light from an enlarger is diffused, not focused,
printing this way is blending. blending values together, not one at
a time. so to mark values side by side, implying they are too light
doesn't mean anything when nothing is said about the values in
between. there is a vocabulary appropriate to a darkroom print, and
it has more to do with the flow of water currents and gravity bending
light than little circles over highlights or shadows.
my
concern really, is more for the darkroom aficionado who might think
they have to go through that step to achieve a final print. they
don't. the step where you mark so many things is not a print, it's a
misstep, something that happens when the printer forgot to look at
the negative before the first exposure... a printer must look at the
negative very closely, visualize it as a positive, pick the contrast
and f/stop to get a comfortable exposure time. because that's when
the changes are made, during those few seconds of exposure. if you
don't have time to dodge, it must be the wrong way to print a
particular neg. one must follow the negative, not fight it. when
you fight a negative, the negative always wins, and the print looks
forced and awkward. if too many highlights are too hot, the solution
is not to burn them one by one, the overall contrast is off, the
print may need less contrast/more exposure, a longer development
time...
to
correct a print, you'd have to know all the factors from the
darkroom, to just mark +1 or -5 on it is meaningless. a better
marking would be "it feels harsh overall", or "not
dramatic enough", "keep the light soft".
and
again, i picked famous images (richard avedon and dennis stock) simply
because they are really well known, but if you take a minute after
the initial "wow, i could never do that in the darkroom",
look at the actual notes and the final print. one has nothing to do
with the other. the circles and ovals and + this and - that are not
reflected on the final print. the test print is too far off to even
help with the final corrections. look at them closely and make up
your mind how you would have done it. it's a useless exercise
because you'd need to see the actual neg to do so, but still, you'll
understand that the changes don't respect the markings, so why
bother? why pretend that's how it works? and if you are an
accomplished printer or just starting to print, don't pay attention
to these photogenic and impressive notes, and please concentrate on
your first guess, you will be way beyond that step on your first try.
but if you need more than a few seconds to work on an image, then by
all means, you should be using photoshop or lightroom for sure.
ps: i am not associated in any form to the prints and images shown above, i just used one of the many versions i found online for the purpose of this blog.
ps: i am not associated in any form to the prints and images shown above, i just used one of the many versions i found online for the purpose of this blog.
Monday, April 6, 2015
thank you sodium sulfite.
sodium
in general has taken over my life. sodium sulfite being the obvious
guilty party in my darkroom, and sodium chloride being added
everywhere in my food. i really don't like the taste of salt, and i
restrain from smelling, or inhaling fumes, of sodium sulfite.
in any case, sodium sulfite is everywhere in silver printing. no
really: everywhere. from beginning to end - it even used to be a
preservative in food. so this problem of oxidation made me
think of how sometimes, when i look at a print, i see a list of
chemicals necessary to the process. a long list, mind you. let's
try to look at what goes where in silver photography: the magic of
the image appearing in the developer is actually quite complicated,
yet fascinating. and many of these chemicals can be quite harmful, to
both people and the environment. the process is not to be taken
lightly. osha recommends to just "water down" your
chemicals into the drain, with enough water so it doesn't damage the
pipes in the building. yep, that's an actual quote.
and
i will not mention the several gases released from mixing powder, or
by contamination. i have always known all this, my dad was an
engineer and mathematician, an uncle a chemistry professor, and
another worked in optics -kind of like oliver sack's "uncle
tungsten" - i walk into my darkroom with a certain knowledge of
chemistry, i understand where harm can come from, and a side effect
is that the skin on my hands is very dry. can't really put cream on
your hands to touch film and photo paper, it's chemically harmless,
but visually awful.
anyway:
sodium sulfite, sodium erythrobate, sodium metabisulfate, disodium
tetraborate pentahydrate, pentasodium ethylenenitrilo tetraacetate,
hydroxymethyl, phénitpyrazolidin. that is just a taste of x-tol. no
hydroquinone you'll notice. and it's a great name, extol the virtues
of this developer! but we forgot that film itself has to be
manufactured first. acetate, i don't feel like going into details
here, just acetate, and gelatin… well, again, let’s just
call it gelatin and concentrate on what gets mixed in with it, namely
crystals. and how does one get these crystals? bars of
silver are dissolved in nitric acid to form silver nitrate, and
combined with bromide as an alkali salt, potassium bromide for
example. this results in light sensitive silver halides
crystals. mixed with gelatin it makes an emulsion, a silver
halides emulsion. voilà.
why
gelatin? it’s transparent, grainless, it’s a liquid when heated
and gels when dry, yet it swells enough when in contact with liquid
chemicals to affect halide crystals.
anyway,
so you mix a solution of silver nitrate with a halide -any alkali
metal halide- say, sodium bromide -don’t forget the ammonium
hydroxide, ammonium bromide, thymol and alcohol. the emulsion
maker may control the very size of these crystals and mix them over
several layers. the crystals get heated, ripening as it is
called, they dissolve and crystallize again. remember, within
each crystal, the atoms are electrically charged (ions) and placed in
a grid of sort by electrical attraction, with free-to-move silver
ions, as well as important -to the latent image, and overall
exposure- crystal imperfections.
so
the film gets exposed -insert entire history of photography here-
the silver ions interact with negative charges, a latent image forms,
the bromide ions are neutralized to atoms, then absorbed by the
gelatin. next thing you know, you’re gently agitating at
equal intervals… the tiny silver deposits will be grown and
amplified (a lot) to give a visible image. the hydroquinone -or
metol, or phenidone- and supportive agents including an alkali and a
preservative start the process. as you agitate the tank,
electrons go for the exposed silver halides carrying silver atoms.
the developer gets full of potassium bromide and other chemicals
without electrons. developing time is over, everything gets
rinsed in water and goes down the drain. let’s skip over the
temperature if you don’t mind… also, you may decide the see
the whole process with infrared, or a green light, and develop by
inspection for even more control.
then
it all needs to be fixed, made stable. ammonium thiosulfate,
boric acid, acidic acid, and again, sodium sulfite. residual
processing chemicals contain sulfur compound and will deteriorate the
image if not washed properly. ironically, a small amount of
residual thiosulfate is needed against oxidizing agents. all
the unexposed, invisible silver halides get washed away in the hypo
(fix). you can then recover the unused silver by electrolysis.
and
don't worry: whatever grain structure is inherent in a film emulsion
will be retained in the developed negative. do we even have to
mention the energy of electrons, the speed of photons needed to get
those latent silver atom specks? crystals are about 1 micron in
diameter and contain about 10¹² silver atoms (or grains). you
need an electron microscope to see these grains. my grain focuser
only sees what we commonly call film grain, but is just really clumps
of about 40 actual grains. long story short, we have a negative to
print, more chemicals to gather and mix.
dihydroxy
benzene, sodium carbonate monohydrate, hydroquinone and potassium
bromide. the thing is that dektol makes my skin dry. perhaps then a
mixture of sodium sulfite, sodium carbonate and hydroquinone, lpd
powder developer seems to be better for me in the long run.
what
type of wood was used to make the base of the paper? for our purpose
perhaps it's best to just talk about the emulsion. although that was
a concern of mine when ilford went from multi IV to the classic fiber
paper. everything matters, any change at all changes things, not
everything necessarily, but enough to make a difference. and yes, it
is now a different wood being used for ilford papers. change is
difficult in a field where consistency is a factor, but necessary in
a technology-based environment. more layers of halides, all equally
sensitive to blue on variable contrast paper, yet each differently
sensitive to green. the halides are now being bombarded with yellow
and magenta light. bam. negative film illuminated onto negative
paper, silver halides into silver metal, reduction from salt to
metal. and then it gets dipped in developer, the silver halides
particles become metallic silver. stop. acidic acid. stop. sodium
thiosulfate removes all untouched silver halides by turning it into a
water soluble complex. wash with plenty of water, drain with plenty
of water. the water is on all day. water water water.
and
ventilation. plenty of ventilation.
all
this solid state chemistry moved indoors before electricity mind you.
velox emulsions are 500 times faster than albumen.
photography was almost a hundred years old before an enlarger with a
light bulb was brought into a darkroom as a regular practice. we are
now way past the gaslight papers era, and exposed our perfectly
evenly coated emulsion with a lightbulb (well, several halogens
etc.). yes, you read right: gaslight paper. i'm glad i have
electricity and mostly mixed chemical formulas where i just add
water. it's very manageable for the everyday. i think twice before
any exposure, i don't waste paper, i take the first guess very
seriously, it's better for the environment.
Monday, March 16, 2015
about closing the darkroom door
99% acidic swirl
yes, no doubt, the darkroom can be an escape from the turmoil of the world outside. and i use it as such often.
outside my darkroom people kill each other for their beliefs. outside my darkroom people are afraid of what they don't understand. outside my darkroom there is plenty of light, yet most people wear blinders. i like to close the door to my darkroom.
most in the industry think of a printer as a technician. sure. that's part of it, but some of us have an opinion about what we print. every day i make prints that will be looked at, analyzed, criticized, etc. every day in my darkroom, i make an effort to respect the medium, the world of silver printing. i make an effort to support the subject, to emphasize its meaning. before i close the door of my darkroom i need to know how the image came about. the narrative helps me make decisions as i expose the paper.
no, i don't like all the images i print, and i don't even like all the prints i make. i must remember though, they are not for me. when i make a print i don't care for, of an image i don't particularly like, then i become a technician. i become a machine-like operator who can lay down shades of gray wherever appropriate. sometimes my passion is a job. although i have been lucky to have printed most negatives that i have. i don't want to only be a technician. i call that the ansel adams syndrome: to be able to control each and every halide on a piece of film, but nowhere left to add any point of view or emotion. i exaggerate perhaps, but most printers are just technicians (and the mere mention of ansel adams gets a little bit more attention). i don't like being in that position, but it does happen sometimes.
outside my darkroom people make new images. outside my darkroom, people have ideas about what a print should look like. but inside my darkroom, i rely on my experience as an artist to make objects of desire, pieces of paper one wants to touch and feel. inside my darkroom, i try not to think about other prints that are being made through different processes. i print negatives exposed to be printed on a silver gelatin emulsion. as simple as that. i made the choice to print silver gelatin after making prints many other ways. my first job as a printer was to make c-prints and duratrans. over the years i have made c-prints, platinum, palladium, gum bichromate, cyanotype, digital-c, giclée, inkjet, pigment, carbon, etching, cibachrome, etc. with or without a lens, from 1/4 inch square to 72x120 inches. my point is: a printer prints. any kind of print. that's what a printer does. a fine art printer sees what's off with a print and makes it feel better. as simple as that. some people are good at editing others' words, and some have a visual vocabulary that cannot be seen.
outside my darkroom i am as invisible as i am inside.
printers specialize nowadays, just like everyone else, and i chose to concentrate on silver gelatin. it's the process of my era, i understand it. i know how to make it look its best precisely because i have worked with other processes. to me, it's a constant in the ever changing world outside my darkroom. it's a process that relies on very few manufacturers to go on. it's a process getting a second wind.
the ever changing world outside my darkroom doesn't have much room for such a slow and expensive process. but as long as people will look for prints as objects, older photographic processes will survive. platinum print makers moved to digital negatives long ago, it adapted without agfa np31 emulsion (!). things tend to change and evolve over time.
inside my darkroom i think about people being afraid of what they don't understand. and if you call the appearance of an image in the developer 'magical', then think about all the magic digital photography has to offer: most photographers don't know how their digital camera, or scanner, really works. it doesn't really matter, very few photographers have cared to know how light sensitive emulsions work anyway. the technology of photography has become so advanced that scientists alone need to understand it. i just hope we don't forget to bridge the gap between art and science so we can enjoy the evolution of the photographic adventure with passion. perhaps the future of my profession will be to make different types of screen surfaces. it's already started: i can't look at the new generation of glossy screens, i can only appreciate an image on a flat matte screen like the eizo. i work with mac computers but could never have an imac. i don't like the way high gloss looks. it hurts my eyes every time i look at an image on my phone screen. that's why i stick to printing for now...
yes, outside my darkroom people are afraid of what they don't understand. to understand every possible way to make a print takes research and dedication. it takes getting rid of our printing prejudices and work with the process best suited for our images, that we can afford. no need to be afraid of the processes we don't understand, we just need to educate ourselves a bit further. the best way to pick a process is to try as many processes as possible. i favor film and silver prints for my own work, but i also use digital files, in color, chromogenic or pigmented. i also know that silver gelatin printing relies on precise and complicated manufacturing to exist, and that could be its downfall, unlike alternative processes where you do your own coating. the film and paper i use everyday are not handmade, they comes from an automated process with machines that break down, suppliers that go in and out of business, it's an industry. and if that industry no longer benefits from making these products, it will adapt and make other products to survive. although i don't believe it will be anytime soon.
i love the feeling of closing a darkroom door, whether it swings or slides. rotating doors are just not the same. neither are mazes. maybe it's just me.
Sunday, October 26, 2014
alfred wertheimer 1929-2014
i
would like to take a moment to remember al.
alfred
wertheimer died a few days ago. i worked with al for many
years, and frankly, i wouldn't have known much about elvis otherwise.
i mean i knew the popular songs and obvious facts, like
everyone else. al was a great storyteller, and you can
certainly see that in his pictures. he would mix his
unbelievable recollection of details and his own impression of the
events simultaneously in a way that kept you wanting more. i
know more about elvis than i care for really, but i also love a good
story, so i listened. now, i'm glad i did.
one
thing i have to mention though: either i'd give him a perfect print
(meaning perfect for al) or no print at all. i could not just
casually print for al, i had to make the extra effort, sweat a
little, push my abilities in the darkroom. my reward was to
know that i gave him the best prints possible from his negatives. i
mean, these were images that were also reproduced in books, as
postcards, posters etc, so a fiber print from the original neg has to
bring something else to the table, a personality if you will. al did
not take this lightly, i always liked that about him.
each
time he would leave negs to me, i'd have to sign my life away and
feel like it too. he knew they were in good hands, but the exchange
was never casual. i understand a negative, i understand it because
i've held negs like alfred wertheimer's of elvis presley in 1956,
just a few strips at a time. that's another reason why i couldn't
show al an OK print, it had to be a great print. and then he would
say: "now, that one's good. let me see the others". my
heart would skip a beat at every print i was showing him that day.
al kept me on my toes.
i
will miss al.
al
taking a picture of my son clayton at the "who shot rock'n roll"
exhibit
opening at the brooklyn museum, oct 2009.
Wednesday, October 15, 2014
everything just changed
well,
for me at least. my sense of timing is off. i am
re-learning how to coordinate my day, how to set the pace in my
activities. it's been a real struggle, a daily readjustment.
i've stopped smoking.
forget the cravings and other blah blah blahs, just how do i know to take a break now? how do i know when a print is done if nothing stops me from staying longer in my darkroom?
forget the cravings and other blah blah blahs, just how do i know to take a break now? how do i know when a print is done if nothing stops me from staying longer in my darkroom?
as
a smoker for 30 or so years, everything in my life was related to
smoking, including my work, and my photography in general.
honestly,
this is why i haven't been able to write about the darkroom for a
while. it's all behind me now, so perhaps i shall try and remember
these past four months. i'll admit it's a bit blurry, i had to focus
on something other than the photographic print, yet a few episodes
will stay with me for a long time.
i had the chance to work with ken schles, making prints from "invisible city". we got along great, prints were taking shape, a few were even finished... but, and it can happen at any stage, the project was finally made differently. i always look for challenges, projects that make me think, really difficult prints to make, with great satisfaction to see done. it's a way to never take the darkroom for granted. i can't really phone-in a 54x68 in. print for tina barney. i have to be paying really close attention, take deep breaths and go. she is mostly a color photographer, but the process of making her black and white prints was quite challenging, and very rewarding. no cigarette break any more. coffee yes. i find new ways to re-focus, i walk around, listen to even more story-telling radio.
while i was sweating my nicotine habit away, i printed the entire "in and around the house" book (twice) as 8x10's for laurie simmons. she knows these images by heart, i can't miss a print. well, maybe 2 or 3, but more than that would be annoying. so i spend some time on the first print of the series, and then i jump, find a rhythm, and print away the hours. the days, the weeks, and still no smoking.
i may be listening to music louder as well. i can't tell, i've lost the moments of reflection i used to take throughout the day. sometimes i don't even know what time it is any more.
i know i was listening to loud music while making prints for chris buck, his images inspire that in me somehow. yet, they fall on the paper so delicately, they almost print themselves. and chris has stories about them all. stories to get me through the day, one more day not smoking.
no cigarette either as i pick the right piece of wood to print through with lisa oppenheim. different shades, different types, different patterns, to be turned to negatives on black and white paper. i liked the project a little bit more with each print. a break in my rhythm of printing negatives as positives.
a big part of my summer -and now the fall- was spent with more 8x10 negs from mitch epstein, printing new images since new york arbor. i approach these negs in a different way, for a print as a colder object. i don't need a cigarette, even if i hallucinate sometimes, i know it's just temporary. so i just keep printing, as usual, and then i realize it's the same again, i print in my darkroom. i just don't smoke anymore. it's all good.
life goes on.
i had the chance to work with ken schles, making prints from "invisible city". we got along great, prints were taking shape, a few were even finished... but, and it can happen at any stage, the project was finally made differently. i always look for challenges, projects that make me think, really difficult prints to make, with great satisfaction to see done. it's a way to never take the darkroom for granted. i can't really phone-in a 54x68 in. print for tina barney. i have to be paying really close attention, take deep breaths and go. she is mostly a color photographer, but the process of making her black and white prints was quite challenging, and very rewarding. no cigarette break any more. coffee yes. i find new ways to re-focus, i walk around, listen to even more story-telling radio.
while i was sweating my nicotine habit away, i printed the entire "in and around the house" book (twice) as 8x10's for laurie simmons. she knows these images by heart, i can't miss a print. well, maybe 2 or 3, but more than that would be annoying. so i spend some time on the first print of the series, and then i jump, find a rhythm, and print away the hours. the days, the weeks, and still no smoking.
i may be listening to music louder as well. i can't tell, i've lost the moments of reflection i used to take throughout the day. sometimes i don't even know what time it is any more.
i know i was listening to loud music while making prints for chris buck, his images inspire that in me somehow. yet, they fall on the paper so delicately, they almost print themselves. and chris has stories about them all. stories to get me through the day, one more day not smoking.
no cigarette either as i pick the right piece of wood to print through with lisa oppenheim. different shades, different types, different patterns, to be turned to negatives on black and white paper. i liked the project a little bit more with each print. a break in my rhythm of printing negatives as positives.
a big part of my summer -and now the fall- was spent with more 8x10 negs from mitch epstein, printing new images since new york arbor. i approach these negs in a different way, for a print as a colder object. i don't need a cigarette, even if i hallucinate sometimes, i know it's just temporary. so i just keep printing, as usual, and then i realize it's the same again, i print in my darkroom. i just don't smoke anymore. it's all good.
life goes on.
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